I got my first ticket! (which is a miracle that I haven't already had one) <-- thats for another time
I dropped my phone and the pixels broke (very small crack its not that big of a deal)
I have been struggling to cope with my emotions... (Im not usually a crier... BUT MY WORD CAN I CRY)
Not only that but I've had a bunch of random things thrown at me... and its odd because when I think Oh no something else happens here come the tears... I just laugh and move on... But when Im laughing and having a good time... I have to walk away for a second and have a secret cry session... LIKE WHATS HAPPENING TO ME!!
These past few weeks have been torture... Every day I wake up thinking Lord just help me get ready... I get in my car and pray that he will help me get wherever I'm going... I get to work or school and pray that I can make it through... I get home and pray that I can make it through the night with out breaking down...
Through all of this there have been strange things happening... God things... BIG ONES! For the first time in my life I have come to an agreement with myself that I really dont care how people perceive me... The only View I care about is Christs view on my life...
I want Him to look at me and say well done good and faithful servant... NOW dont get me wrong I have, am, and will make mistakes but I'm giving all of me to Him...
Im done thinking that Im in the PIT and I cant get out...
when really im only in knee deep but because I am constantly looking down I forget about my surroundings... And now Im looking up focusing on Him and Im finding myself closer and closer to the SOLID GROUND (its cheesy but how I feel!)
Im done with worrying if people are lying about me or saying false things about me... I am done with feeling sorry for myself!
I am a WOMAN OF GOD! I AM STRONG IN HIM! not through my own strength but through the strength he puts in me!
I am proclaiming my love and affection for the Lord now... To everyone! THERE IS NO GOING BACK!!! THOUGH NONE GO WITH ME STILL I WILL FOLLOW!!!!!
Family, friends, co-workers... May look at me like I'm crazy... or out there... BUT IM DONE LIVING FOR THEM!!!
I WANT TO GLORIFY THE LORD!!! NOT MYSELF!!! I WANT TO LITERALLY BE A REFLECTION OF CHRIST!
My heart has been so heavy lately and Im laying my burden out there and I am moving forward!
I am no longer concerned with the things I have done in the past, and the lies that have been said against me... Im done with the drama life throws at me... Im done living a worldly lifestyle and yet claiming to live for the one TRUE KING!
Im working on myself! and it wont be over night! All I need is prayer! LOTS AND LOTS OF PRAYER!
Encouragement and assurance... I am thankful to have so many out there already doing this for me! and I appreciate every one of you!
GOD IS AWE-SOME!!! LITERALLY!!! All I want is to bring Glory too His name... and to worship him with all that I am!
I know there will be ups... and there will be downs! but He never leaves me...
Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" If that verse can help me get across the monkey bars... It can surely get me through life :)
"When I'm lost in the mystery
To You my future is a memory
Cause You're already there
You're already there
Standing at the end of my life
Waiting on the other side
And You're already there
You're already there" Already there by Casting Crowns
I have Jesus on my side... And with Him... I am made new... I am redeemed... I am alive... And I will Serve! :)
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